Life

There's been a lot of things happening in my life currently. College is one of it. And the worst. I am so sick of it. I thought it would be more relaxing. But I don't feel relaxed. It's like every week I have assignments or exams or presentation to do. I never have a week which is free from all those work since the week 5 of my college week. Now, the prom night is coming soon. I still haven't make decision whether to go or not to go. It's kinda stupid from what I heard, All we gonna do there is to sit and watch performance. There won't be any food. Plus it's from 5.30 until 10pm. This will seriously cause me to sleep in it. 4 hours plus in the hall with FORMAL clothes just to watch performance =.= It's on Monday the thing is. How am I supposed to get ready? I can't go back home get ready then only go back to college. My class finishes at 3pm on Monday. It's gonna be super rushy. Maybe I'll consider going next year. Since next year will be my last year already [=

That person [= Things been going well with that person. I was sad the other day because of what that person said again. I don't know why everything that person said will make me sad. I mean most of the things le. Not all. =.= I was suprised that person can even spell my name wrongly. Spelled another person's name (kinda same name but different spelling). I don't know what is their relationship but I guess it must be someone kinda special to that person. I saw the same name person in that person's phone. Hmm. And yea. I finally know that person's feeling towards me. I'm happy it's a good thing. If not, I don't know how am I gonna face that person. There is some thing that I can say may stop us from being together. I really hope that something wouldn't happen and I am kinda scared. Plus, the person still haven't really forget about the past. I guess I should just wait till that person forget about the past before I step in more. I know it's not easy but I hope that person can forget about it. I will wait [= That person might not be my bai ma wang zi. But that person somehow just managed to take away every bit of my heart. It feels good to be beside that person. That person talk without thinking, so there's a lot of things he said that kinda hurt me but well, I still feel ok except for certain things =/

I know sometimes when I'm sad, I'll ignore that person. Same when I'm angry. I know that person don't know what to do when I ignore. I don't talk to that person when that person talks to me. I just stare and talk to other people. Somehow, I know it's not a good thing but I just don't feel like talking to that person. When I'm sad and it's because of what that person said, I can't talk to that person. I'll start to feel even sad. And I seriously don't wanna cry in front of that person anymore. I'm sorry for ignoring you. I hope you'll understand. I feel bad too I ignored you. Sometimes, when that person said something, I just feel that I got no more hope. It's like that person doesn't care about me. I always think that much. I'm crazy. That's a fact that is undeniable. Human make mistakes. I know that.

It's study time. Bye. Gonna update my blog as soon as I'm free again [=

It's gonna be two months already we know each other [=